The past few weeks, I’ve taken a bit of a break from the internet. Initially, I felt the need to apologize for my lack of blogs and videos, but I’m sure that all of you found other information on the internet to hold you attention (haha). I’m willing to bet no one was biting their nails in a nervous frenzy waiting for my next post.
The reality is, after a while, there internet has started to bother me. Between the hurtful comments and Christian infighting, it really begins to wear me down. It’s not just within Christian circles, it’s the internet as a whole.
We often forget that behind the avatars and screen names, there is a human being. We aren’t throwing our ad hominem attacks at robots; real human beings with feelings are reading our words and responding to them.
Over the past few months, I’ve been told to kill myself, have been called a “worthless piece of shit”, and have had my salvation questioned. It hurts. And I needed to step away from that.
I had to withdraw into the Lord’s presence. That’s where I feel the most safe.
My mind knows that when people talks to me in such a hateful way, there is likely pain within them. I know this. That doesn’t change the fact that it isn’t fun to have someone project their pain onto you.
I believe it is good for us to unplug sometimes. We spend so much time staring at an illuminated screen that it can become a distraction. We often neglect to spend that one on one time with God because the internet can provide instant gratification. Sadly, we miss out on something very real and important when we don’t step away from our phones and computers.
I’m ready to dive back into it all. But, I believe the constant flood of nasty comments is something that I’ll always have to battle against. It isn’t easy putting yourself out there and preaching God’s truth, but it is the calling on my life.
I know that Christ has suffered far more than I ever will, so I guess I just need to find a way to live with it. Perhaps, I need to anchor myself more in Christ so these comments don’t get to me so much.
To wrap this up, to those of you who continue to pour out your love and support, words cannot express how much you mean to me. I ask that you keep me and Christians in Motion in your prayers.
Much love and God bless